Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances.”

12 April 2008


J.K. Commandment #19: Accept loss forever.
"To love is also good: for love is difficult." This is the core of it. That somehow i must let go and grieve not wish it were some other way. it is what and how and who it is and there is only death in regretting, death without rebirth. Grief is like springtime when the frozen earth dissolves to water to soften the seed coax it open encourage it enliven it and something green and miraculous springs forth to feed us. grief washes the barren soul the nile flooded was made a goddess grief softens the seed of something dying to be reborn. death leaves a seed for us to grow. souls i have thrown to barren ground friendships i have allowed to wither not water my life has been an untended garden and i have danced blind into wild briars and trampled tender greens under a raging foot i have danced devastation into my life and the lives of those around me throwing salt a wake of scorched earth ragged refugees from empty deaths the earth of my life paved over and circled with fear fire wire and now after all something grows. something awakens rises defies. pilgrim spirit guardian angel grow green up through empty death and bloom. sing spring song beauty serenity clarity hope. and when bloom is through there will be a seed to sow and the children of pilgrim spirit guardian angel will be as courageous blades of grass to feed the earth and make a space to breathe and grieve and grow a garden.

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"And if the question were asked: What is more real, the mundane or the sublime? most would hesitate before they gave an answer. On the one side, details: say, the aftermath of a breakfast, dirty chipped plates in the sink, their rims encrusted with egg yolk. Against this, the unnameable: small aching heart with boasts, what can you know? Outside the cage of everything we ever heard or saw, beyond, outside, above, there lies the real, hiding as long as we shall live, there stretch and trail the millions of names of God burning across the eons. When all through this our end will come before we even know the names of us.

For many the egg yolk prevails." -L.M.

"Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well."
-V.V.G.

"The perfection of the Absolute where all Becoming stops and pure Being, immutable, timeless, unchanging, hangs forever like a ripe peach upon the bough." -E.A.

"...and the whole incident was incredibly frazzling and angst-rod and filled almost a whole mead notebook and is here recounted in only its barest psycho-skeletal outline." -D.F.W.

"At the top of the mountain, we are all snow leopards." -H.S.T.

"Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live." -D.T.
"Cometh a voice: My children, hear; From the crowded street and the close-packed mart I call you back with my message clear, back to my lap and my loving heart. Long have ye left me, journeying on by range and river and grassy plain, to the teeming towns where the rest have gone - come back, come back to my arms again. So shall ye lose the foolish needs that gnaw your souls; and my touch shall serve to heal the fretted nerve. Treading the turf that ye once loved well, instead of the stones of the city's street, ye shall hear nor din nor drunken yell, but the wind that croons in the ripening wheat. I that am old have seen long since ruin of palaces made with hands for the soldier-king and the priest and prince whose cities crumble in desert sands. But still the furrow in many a clime yields softly under the ploughman's feet; still there is seeding and harvest time, and the wind still croons in the ripening wheat. The works of man are but little worth; for a time they stand, for a space endure; but turn once more to your mother - Earth, my gifts are gracious, my works are sure. Instead of the strife and pain I give you peace, with its blessing sweet. Come back, come back to my arms again, for the wind still croons in the ripening wheat."
-John Sandes, The Earth-Mother (excerpt, 1918)