Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances.”

10 August 2009

"What a sight for my eyes to see you in sleep.
Could've startled the sunrise hearing you weep.
You're not seen, you're not heard
but I stand by my word.
Came a thousand miles
just to catch you while you're smiling."




the heat and the rain called up all the smells water on rocks sun on my skin and where the coyote came up through tall grass onto the road behind me there are no tracks. we walk a little more slowly through the shade grass damp cool coming off the rock wet from last nights rain fields snowy with queen anne goldenrod blooming yellow and green yet. what song would the round bales play, a golden scroll for the musicbox of august? the daylilies are stalks the teasel a head of pins.



corn tassel sunset surrogate between green fields and grey stitched with barnswallows this my mockingbird summer. wheel song between the black jockey and the veal farm between sqallor and pearl i sing my space madrigal between stubblefield crows and sumac groves around the old well.

"What a day for laughter and walking at night.
Me following after, your hand holding tight.
And the memory stays clear with the song that you hear.
If I can but make the words awake the feeling."




lightning corners difficult to navigate pot hole slush margins between me and purple dim refuge a thin treacle of air before it sieved and vaguely desperate. i offer myself to be of use. clear. open. through sherman hollow the inexorable sucking sound of time briefly stupefied where the veil gets thin near the owl house. black big buoy and a good view lawn tchotchkes smell of meat and fire death money ghosts of muskrat earth turtle black cattle when he was a boy. faerie bright under the overcast and rustle. toes in the breeze. my hat on.



after six years we finally got that first kiss out of the way. a delayed valentine to know we were sure.



the old road. it begins to rain in the graveyard naming names cowboys and indians at the edge of the hedgerow he and i concealed in recent alchemy new wine in an old old bottle one crouching one erect offering old wine over the bones. ive been listening to loving cup by the rolling stones black cat nebula around my neck. breeding the spiderplant. the song time sings me.

"What a reason for waiting and dreaming of dreams.
So here's hoping you've faith in impossible schemes,
that are born in the sigh of the wind blowing by
while the dimming light brings the end to a night of loving."


the road goes on forever and the party never ends.

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"And if the question were asked: What is more real, the mundane or the sublime? most would hesitate before they gave an answer. On the one side, details: say, the aftermath of a breakfast, dirty chipped plates in the sink, their rims encrusted with egg yolk. Against this, the unnameable: small aching heart with boasts, what can you know? Outside the cage of everything we ever heard or saw, beyond, outside, above, there lies the real, hiding as long as we shall live, there stretch and trail the millions of names of God burning across the eons. When all through this our end will come before we even know the names of us.

For many the egg yolk prevails." -L.M.

"Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well."
-V.V.G.

"The perfection of the Absolute where all Becoming stops and pure Being, immutable, timeless, unchanging, hangs forever like a ripe peach upon the bough." -E.A.

"...and the whole incident was incredibly frazzling and angst-rod and filled almost a whole mead notebook and is here recounted in only its barest psycho-skeletal outline." -D.F.W.

"At the top of the mountain, we are all snow leopards." -H.S.T.

"Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live." -D.T.
"Cometh a voice: My children, hear; From the crowded street and the close-packed mart I call you back with my message clear, back to my lap and my loving heart. Long have ye left me, journeying on by range and river and grassy plain, to the teeming towns where the rest have gone - come back, come back to my arms again. So shall ye lose the foolish needs that gnaw your souls; and my touch shall serve to heal the fretted nerve. Treading the turf that ye once loved well, instead of the stones of the city's street, ye shall hear nor din nor drunken yell, but the wind that croons in the ripening wheat. I that am old have seen long since ruin of palaces made with hands for the soldier-king and the priest and prince whose cities crumble in desert sands. But still the furrow in many a clime yields softly under the ploughman's feet; still there is seeding and harvest time, and the wind still croons in the ripening wheat. The works of man are but little worth; for a time they stand, for a space endure; but turn once more to your mother - Earth, my gifts are gracious, my works are sure. Instead of the strife and pain I give you peace, with its blessing sweet. Come back, come back to my arms again, for the wind still croons in the ripening wheat."
-John Sandes, The Earth-Mother (excerpt, 1918)