Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances.”

31 July 2009



woke up four this morning wide awake alive more alive than ive felt since that afternoon on cherry hill when i was at home in my skin and the breath did not catch in my throat like something too big to swallow.



extraordinary dreams stretched and folded together. horizontal sculpture of marble flaming skull im crawling along through the caches of water with a little boy and we are laughing. tables for eight painted into every step down a spiraling staircase leading to day they make an offering to the cops. young men i used to know dressed elizabethan and dueling with small daggers the man at the bar in the breastbone mask pricks my palm and they say its an honor. these all opalescent satellites around axis vision pleasure pirates men and women taking hostage pedestrian transition space energy and convert it to laughter and beauty. they disrobe to prevent escape while along the edges enormnous men are elephant seals paired off and we queue up with what scrap weve collected against which to weigh our souls.



my eyes adjust to the light and i see my path so much more clearly.



we walked and offered ourselves to the hungry insect kingdoms. home i went out with the big basket and you see what i found. my hand and the earth my spirit and Her grace. clean powerful food blessed in the same night i sleep in, the same sun i am seen by. today rain and suddenly the smell of carrots, sweet spicy earth smell, less dense than tomato denser than dill. pools of time for stretching and the translation of words into life energy, a loaf for the day, a high holy, to offer and to feed. blessed be.

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"And if the question were asked: What is more real, the mundane or the sublime? most would hesitate before they gave an answer. On the one side, details: say, the aftermath of a breakfast, dirty chipped plates in the sink, their rims encrusted with egg yolk. Against this, the unnameable: small aching heart with boasts, what can you know? Outside the cage of everything we ever heard or saw, beyond, outside, above, there lies the real, hiding as long as we shall live, there stretch and trail the millions of names of God burning across the eons. When all through this our end will come before we even know the names of us.

For many the egg yolk prevails." -L.M.

"Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well."
-V.V.G.

"The perfection of the Absolute where all Becoming stops and pure Being, immutable, timeless, unchanging, hangs forever like a ripe peach upon the bough." -E.A.

"...and the whole incident was incredibly frazzling and angst-rod and filled almost a whole mead notebook and is here recounted in only its barest psycho-skeletal outline." -D.F.W.

"At the top of the mountain, we are all snow leopards." -H.S.T.

"Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live." -D.T.
"Cometh a voice: My children, hear; From the crowded street and the close-packed mart I call you back with my message clear, back to my lap and my loving heart. Long have ye left me, journeying on by range and river and grassy plain, to the teeming towns where the rest have gone - come back, come back to my arms again. So shall ye lose the foolish needs that gnaw your souls; and my touch shall serve to heal the fretted nerve. Treading the turf that ye once loved well, instead of the stones of the city's street, ye shall hear nor din nor drunken yell, but the wind that croons in the ripening wheat. I that am old have seen long since ruin of palaces made with hands for the soldier-king and the priest and prince whose cities crumble in desert sands. But still the furrow in many a clime yields softly under the ploughman's feet; still there is seeding and harvest time, and the wind still croons in the ripening wheat. The works of man are but little worth; for a time they stand, for a space endure; but turn once more to your mother - Earth, my gifts are gracious, my works are sure. Instead of the strife and pain I give you peace, with its blessing sweet. Come back, come back to my arms again, for the wind still croons in the ripening wheat."
-John Sandes, The Earth-Mother (excerpt, 1918)