Bright Idea #89: Infinite Invisible Vibrating Omniscient Energy.
"...or once, the realization that a baby skunk had taken to one of the cots we slept on and was, on a rainy morning, in a sound sleep...think of us watching that very little skunk curled in the best blanket, opening its eyes sleepily and then closing them again; think of our silent and entirely happy laughter as we too went back to sleep." Splendid. the lady called it indian summer. bright and a warm breeze and the leaves spiralling skittering swooshing everything golden garnet the clear blue sky of fair fall weather. thought id be a dynamo but listless and resigned. reveling in the miracle of my every breath, nonetheless, but quietly, from afar. more time outside with Z. learning the lessons of reciprocity and joy. that wonderful leaf smell, the garden is frost-bitten and things need pulling and tilling. being a body is hard work, and we dont give ourselves enough credit. #4 is frustrated with the leaps were asked to make in learning and id get frustrated too if i didnt realize this frustration is part of the process. leaping over the rut. ill get my vibe back in a day or two, just so used to denying my rhythms and ignoring the body my brain drags around. i prefer this to the one that comes before. im grateful i dont have to live with that much testosterone on a daily basis. early bed, full day tomorrow then far-flung adventure with sister and her own.


