Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances.”

09 October 2008


Bright Idea #89: Infinite Invisible Vibrating Omniscient Energy.
"...or once, the realization that a baby skunk had taken to one of the cots we slept on and was, on a rainy morning, in a sound sleep...think of us watching that very little skunk curled in the best blanket, opening its eyes sleepily and then closing them again; think of our silent and entirely happy laughter as we too went back to sleep." Splendid. the lady called it indian summer. bright and a warm breeze and the leaves spiralling skittering swooshing everything golden garnet the clear blue sky of fair fall weather. thought id be a dynamo but listless and resigned. reveling in the miracle of my every breath, nonetheless, but quietly, from afar. more time outside with Z. learning the lessons of reciprocity and joy. that wonderful leaf smell, the garden is frost-bitten and things need pulling and tilling. being a body is hard work, and we dont give ourselves enough credit. #4 is frustrated with the leaps were asked to make in learning and id get frustrated too if i didnt realize this frustration is part of the process. leaping over the rut. ill get my vibe back in a day or two, just so used to denying my rhythms and ignoring the body my brain drags around. i prefer this to the one that comes before. im grateful i dont have to live with that much testosterone on a daily basis. early bed, full day tomorrow then far-flung adventure with sister and her own.
"And if the question were asked: What is more real, the mundane or the sublime? most would hesitate before they gave an answer. On the one side, details: say, the aftermath of a breakfast, dirty chipped plates in the sink, their rims encrusted with egg yolk. Against this, the unnameable: small aching heart with boasts, what can you know? Outside the cage of everything we ever heard or saw, beyond, outside, above, there lies the real, hiding as long as we shall live, there stretch and trail the millions of names of God burning across the eons. When all through this our end will come before we even know the names of us.

For many the egg yolk prevails." -L.M.

"Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well."
-V.V.G.

"The perfection of the Absolute where all Becoming stops and pure Being, immutable, timeless, unchanging, hangs forever like a ripe peach upon the bough." -E.A.

"...and the whole incident was incredibly frazzling and angst-rod and filled almost a whole mead notebook and is here recounted in only its barest psycho-skeletal outline." -D.F.W.

"At the top of the mountain, we are all snow leopards." -H.S.T.

"Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live." -D.T.
"Cometh a voice: My children, hear; From the crowded street and the close-packed mart I call you back with my message clear, back to my lap and my loving heart. Long have ye left me, journeying on by range and river and grassy plain, to the teeming towns where the rest have gone - come back, come back to my arms again. So shall ye lose the foolish needs that gnaw your souls; and my touch shall serve to heal the fretted nerve. Treading the turf that ye once loved well, instead of the stones of the city's street, ye shall hear nor din nor drunken yell, but the wind that croons in the ripening wheat. I that am old have seen long since ruin of palaces made with hands for the soldier-king and the priest and prince whose cities crumble in desert sands. But still the furrow in many a clime yields softly under the ploughman's feet; still there is seeding and harvest time, and the wind still croons in the ripening wheat. The works of man are but little worth; for a time they stand, for a space endure; but turn once more to your mother - Earth, my gifts are gracious, my works are sure. Instead of the strife and pain I give you peace, with its blessing sweet. Come back, come back to my arms again, for the wind still croons in the ripening wheat."
-John Sandes, The Earth-Mother (excerpt, 1918)