Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances.”

05 October 2008


Bright Idea #85: Present Moment, Perfect Moment.
"The goal of the hero trip down to the jewel point is to find those levels in the psyche that open, open, open and finally open to the mystery of your Self." Up early with #4 and the dogs, morning chores and good coffee then down the road with the two walk dogs and the sheriff asks me if ive seen a tractor hauling machinery taking up the road. i havent. i deeply want to engage him in the details but never found them men of many words to suffer ear-flap hat hippies so i think better of it in a flash of self-preservation and wish him luck. big breakfast for everyone and sister calls boys pile into Louise and were off to the lake for a last hurrah the boys havent been to the lakehouse yet its so splendid and perfect and we walk down to the dock #4 collects beach glass and i find a fossil. donner engages me in tangential discourse of calcium deposits and how stones get holes. champagne in a to-go mug and my power spot between the pine trees. knitting on the dock and the boys chase seagulls. #4 angry he cant go to pay for petrol and locks us out somehow setting off the alarm that i cant disengage and the beefy employee and his minor manager come out and it takes them awhile to puzzle it out and we buy foundation garments for the boys and a bar of chocolate for me that says peace on earth and a brown candle and bagels and theres a hail-mary dinner for the boys that even i marvel at, side dishes and everything (!). clean-up clean-up, skidding into sunday night, on the lake #3 steered the ship while #4 and i named clouds. uncle olaf, vulture saving drowning fox. light on the water, the one hill red the other gold. when we looked through the photos of the day they boys and i noticed the bear.
"And if the question were asked: What is more real, the mundane or the sublime? most would hesitate before they gave an answer. On the one side, details: say, the aftermath of a breakfast, dirty chipped plates in the sink, their rims encrusted with egg yolk. Against this, the unnameable: small aching heart with boasts, what can you know? Outside the cage of everything we ever heard or saw, beyond, outside, above, there lies the real, hiding as long as we shall live, there stretch and trail the millions of names of God burning across the eons. When all through this our end will come before we even know the names of us.

For many the egg yolk prevails." -L.M.

"Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well."
-V.V.G.

"The perfection of the Absolute where all Becoming stops and pure Being, immutable, timeless, unchanging, hangs forever like a ripe peach upon the bough." -E.A.

"...and the whole incident was incredibly frazzling and angst-rod and filled almost a whole mead notebook and is here recounted in only its barest psycho-skeletal outline." -D.F.W.

"At the top of the mountain, we are all snow leopards." -H.S.T.

"Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live." -D.T.
"Cometh a voice: My children, hear; From the crowded street and the close-packed mart I call you back with my message clear, back to my lap and my loving heart. Long have ye left me, journeying on by range and river and grassy plain, to the teeming towns where the rest have gone - come back, come back to my arms again. So shall ye lose the foolish needs that gnaw your souls; and my touch shall serve to heal the fretted nerve. Treading the turf that ye once loved well, instead of the stones of the city's street, ye shall hear nor din nor drunken yell, but the wind that croons in the ripening wheat. I that am old have seen long since ruin of palaces made with hands for the soldier-king and the priest and prince whose cities crumble in desert sands. But still the furrow in many a clime yields softly under the ploughman's feet; still there is seeding and harvest time, and the wind still croons in the ripening wheat. The works of man are but little worth; for a time they stand, for a space endure; but turn once more to your mother - Earth, my gifts are gracious, my works are sure. Instead of the strife and pain I give you peace, with its blessing sweet. Come back, come back to my arms again, for the wind still croons in the ripening wheat."
-John Sandes, The Earth-Mother (excerpt, 1918)