Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances.”

08 October 2008


Bright Idea #88: Dont Let It Get To You.
"You can't rip the skin off the snake. The snake must moult the skin. That's the rate it happens." Errands before a half day that ends in rain. They stole her bowling trophy because after a year she still brags. greenland is melting iceland is bankrupt global recession depression regression ill start another hat tonight maybe finish the gloves he stoneworks the hearth was i the one who said suck? theres fog between my ears and thats okay if today theres nothing to say and the shallow rhymes are like a busy signal im not taking any calls. how different an experience for me to listen to them over the radio, knitting in the night, perched next to the old crosley listening while whoever else tuned in to tv screens is absorbing the information in a different way and i thought of what tv did for kennedy. tv is distracting but thats the point, right? i had them print the double exposures and theyre great. so great i may stay with film for a little while longer its just getting harder to find someone to develop it and then i get all green-paranoid over the chemicals. Z. gets into the rainy garden and rolls in it. im upstairs with an unwilling puppy in the tub and the neighborhood kids come through the bathroom door they want #4 to play hide-n-seek in the rain. how wonderful for children to trust me enough to come through the door and ask to borrow my son! i made nice with the community pillar ex-music teacher lady at lunch. i didnt let it bother me that the one who wont stand me stay in the same room with me was there and i laughed clear and let myself be loved instead of wondering why i wasnt. breath is miraculous. light is miraculous. creativity is miraculous.
"And if the question were asked: What is more real, the mundane or the sublime? most would hesitate before they gave an answer. On the one side, details: say, the aftermath of a breakfast, dirty chipped plates in the sink, their rims encrusted with egg yolk. Against this, the unnameable: small aching heart with boasts, what can you know? Outside the cage of everything we ever heard or saw, beyond, outside, above, there lies the real, hiding as long as we shall live, there stretch and trail the millions of names of God burning across the eons. When all through this our end will come before we even know the names of us.

For many the egg yolk prevails." -L.M.

"Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well."
-V.V.G.

"The perfection of the Absolute where all Becoming stops and pure Being, immutable, timeless, unchanging, hangs forever like a ripe peach upon the bough." -E.A.

"...and the whole incident was incredibly frazzling and angst-rod and filled almost a whole mead notebook and is here recounted in only its barest psycho-skeletal outline." -D.F.W.

"At the top of the mountain, we are all snow leopards." -H.S.T.

"Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live." -D.T.
"Cometh a voice: My children, hear; From the crowded street and the close-packed mart I call you back with my message clear, back to my lap and my loving heart. Long have ye left me, journeying on by range and river and grassy plain, to the teeming towns where the rest have gone - come back, come back to my arms again. So shall ye lose the foolish needs that gnaw your souls; and my touch shall serve to heal the fretted nerve. Treading the turf that ye once loved well, instead of the stones of the city's street, ye shall hear nor din nor drunken yell, but the wind that croons in the ripening wheat. I that am old have seen long since ruin of palaces made with hands for the soldier-king and the priest and prince whose cities crumble in desert sands. But still the furrow in many a clime yields softly under the ploughman's feet; still there is seeding and harvest time, and the wind still croons in the ripening wheat. The works of man are but little worth; for a time they stand, for a space endure; but turn once more to your mother - Earth, my gifts are gracious, my works are sure. Instead of the strife and pain I give you peace, with its blessing sweet. Come back, come back to my arms again, for the wind still croons in the ripening wheat."
-John Sandes, The Earth-Mother (excerpt, 1918)