Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances.”

28 May 2008


Bright Idea #26: Be the Cause of your Effect.
"There are many fine things which you mean to do some day, under what you think will be more favorable circumstances. But the only time that is yours is the present." Lost Weekend. The Magick Sack, the Boating Party, The Earth Mother. Krsna comes to me in dreams, strewing flowers. The Mexican Standoff of Books and Beer. my resignation to the situation making the best of whats left. finding myself again in a place more than willing to appease my taste for self-loathing and anxious uncertainty. today a bright sky and high frost but the nightshades persist in their spirit evolution and i am grateful. decided to dump the guru not sustainable the guitars too close to the amplifier ive gotten some good advice a loaf of crusty bread a handful of beans a goose that one day may just lay a golden egg in which i will see my reflection and it will somehow not be upside down. ive numbered my summer goals and set seed for summer garden. i may always err but i will always keep trying to get it right so it sings in my blood reverberates in my sternum the baby sleeping on my belly told me all i needed to know about all we need. guru told me to sit with it just sit with it breathe sit with it breathe sit with it breathe i contemplate the Sacred Heart with modifications crown for Her barbed wire for Him and Wings for me. something to remind me of triunes hope the heart that knows its all holy. holy holy. #4 and i at early breakfast table head dancing to big band gypsy music tight tight horn section the caravan coming over the hill the mules dressed in blue ribbons the women smelling of the woods the men with oak leaves in their hair summer is a cumin in, a day of marking of music a grand fire to praise the sun the return of lengthening night. just the few of us there on a rise in a tiny town in a world so far away from the beginning and were mesmerized by the line where the water ends and the air begins no one thinks to think we move closer to the end the valley comes into view the beautiful valley well fall into like the geese in my dream their wings on the water still fluttering.
"And if the question were asked: What is more real, the mundane or the sublime? most would hesitate before they gave an answer. On the one side, details: say, the aftermath of a breakfast, dirty chipped plates in the sink, their rims encrusted with egg yolk. Against this, the unnameable: small aching heart with boasts, what can you know? Outside the cage of everything we ever heard or saw, beyond, outside, above, there lies the real, hiding as long as we shall live, there stretch and trail the millions of names of God burning across the eons. When all through this our end will come before we even know the names of us.

For many the egg yolk prevails." -L.M.

"Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well."
-V.V.G.

"The perfection of the Absolute where all Becoming stops and pure Being, immutable, timeless, unchanging, hangs forever like a ripe peach upon the bough." -E.A.

"...and the whole incident was incredibly frazzling and angst-rod and filled almost a whole mead notebook and is here recounted in only its barest psycho-skeletal outline." -D.F.W.

"At the top of the mountain, we are all snow leopards." -H.S.T.

"Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live." -D.T.
"Cometh a voice: My children, hear; From the crowded street and the close-packed mart I call you back with my message clear, back to my lap and my loving heart. Long have ye left me, journeying on by range and river and grassy plain, to the teeming towns where the rest have gone - come back, come back to my arms again. So shall ye lose the foolish needs that gnaw your souls; and my touch shall serve to heal the fretted nerve. Treading the turf that ye once loved well, instead of the stones of the city's street, ye shall hear nor din nor drunken yell, but the wind that croons in the ripening wheat. I that am old have seen long since ruin of palaces made with hands for the soldier-king and the priest and prince whose cities crumble in desert sands. But still the furrow in many a clime yields softly under the ploughman's feet; still there is seeding and harvest time, and the wind still croons in the ripening wheat. The works of man are but little worth; for a time they stand, for a space endure; but turn once more to your mother - Earth, my gifts are gracious, my works are sure. Instead of the strife and pain I give you peace, with its blessing sweet. Come back, come back to my arms again, for the wind still croons in the ripening wheat."
-John Sandes, The Earth-Mother (excerpt, 1918)