Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances.”

09 April 2008


J.K. Commandment #16: The jewel center of interest is the eye within the eye.
"Know that no want exists for, no hand bereaving takes from, the acted resolution: to be. Silken thread, you have entered into the weaving." The wednesdays are difficult theres too much at the surface the swamp surges claw marks heightened awareness uneasy laughter exposure exhumation but this morning i went to where the air smells of horses and a genealogy of snakes lives under the well the apple trees need planting and my heart runs on four hooves in the paddock i could stop and think about that forever. i am not afraid of falling apart or losing touch or going insane i do not think those things will happen if i let the light in open the cellar door take a screwdriver to the rusty crevasse of my history i am afraid of not being in control of letting these feeling have their way with me the way theyve waited to be for thirty years a deluge a landslide here comes the flood implacable you can only wait for it to be over and see whats left. whats left will be important whats left will be true and clean. i just have to let it. breathe. let it. and it will be a birthday reunion marriage revelation. it will at last be beautiful to be.

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"And if the question were asked: What is more real, the mundane or the sublime? most would hesitate before they gave an answer. On the one side, details: say, the aftermath of a breakfast, dirty chipped plates in the sink, their rims encrusted with egg yolk. Against this, the unnameable: small aching heart with boasts, what can you know? Outside the cage of everything we ever heard or saw, beyond, outside, above, there lies the real, hiding as long as we shall live, there stretch and trail the millions of names of God burning across the eons. When all through this our end will come before we even know the names of us.

For many the egg yolk prevails." -L.M.

"Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well."
-V.V.G.

"The perfection of the Absolute where all Becoming stops and pure Being, immutable, timeless, unchanging, hangs forever like a ripe peach upon the bough." -E.A.

"...and the whole incident was incredibly frazzling and angst-rod and filled almost a whole mead notebook and is here recounted in only its barest psycho-skeletal outline." -D.F.W.

"At the top of the mountain, we are all snow leopards." -H.S.T.

"Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live." -D.T.
"Cometh a voice: My children, hear; From the crowded street and the close-packed mart I call you back with my message clear, back to my lap and my loving heart. Long have ye left me, journeying on by range and river and grassy plain, to the teeming towns where the rest have gone - come back, come back to my arms again. So shall ye lose the foolish needs that gnaw your souls; and my touch shall serve to heal the fretted nerve. Treading the turf that ye once loved well, instead of the stones of the city's street, ye shall hear nor din nor drunken yell, but the wind that croons in the ripening wheat. I that am old have seen long since ruin of palaces made with hands for the soldier-king and the priest and prince whose cities crumble in desert sands. But still the furrow in many a clime yields softly under the ploughman's feet; still there is seeding and harvest time, and the wind still croons in the ripening wheat. The works of man are but little worth; for a time they stand, for a space endure; but turn once more to your mother - Earth, my gifts are gracious, my works are sure. Instead of the strife and pain I give you peace, with its blessing sweet. Come back, come back to my arms again, for the wind still croons in the ripening wheat."
-John Sandes, The Earth-Mother (excerpt, 1918)