J.K. Commandment #14: Like Proust be an old teahead of time.
“There's a difference between knowing the path and walking the path.” Breathe. It surprises me when someone comes near, peeking into the house through windows knocking wondering who is about why would they? i ask myself, completely unconnected to the idea that i am worth knowing. because who they find is a house with the valuables locked away and the key is under a rock behind a painting in the garden between the rows the third drawer on the left in a velvet box nailed shut. the cookies and tea come out the wide eyes open hands but theres a ghost over my shoulder a rapping at the cellar door. let me turn the music up dance a little im a mother quail flailing stalling calling out no one here to know. but she says we and i say who? ive never been a we ive never. breathe. it comes together the threads the places and names the reasons why. i learn as i go sitting quietly trying to remember where i left it locked it away up out of reach trying to remember not to turn my head too quickly but shes out there on the weedy walk wondering where i am. it seems there cannot be a we without a me so i better get to remembering where it was i left me so long ago and i am not afraid because what i locked away is not bread or butter paper or thread i cannot be discovered with horror mouldering away like a body it is not body or blood or brain it is imperishable it sings quietly to itself in its dark place with infinite patience because it knows what i am only learning: that she and i are a we there is no one without the other and so long as i breathe she will wait and one day i hope i will remember and i will be we with him and her and the whole world i will be we and me completely.
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