12 of 365:

1. The Big Beautiful Full Moon.
2. The Rare Fish Dinner.
3. The Inevitable Reunion of Women who Love Them.
4. Lemonade to Splash in My Water.
5. The Buffalo Robe.
6. Memory Cards.
7. The Mittens i Knit for the Bootsies.
8. Fugazi.
9. NPR.
10. "Keep Calm and Carry On."
11. Coming Home.
12. All the Dreadful Songs i Like Anyway...Sundown, Cathedral, Everybodys Talkin...

"The most incomprehensible thing about the world is that it is comprehensible."

11 of 365:

1. Another Successful Day of Eating Really Good Food.
2. Whole Wheat Brownies Everyone Likes.
3. Reading with #4.
4. He Reminds me Nicely to Take My Meds.
5. Snow.
6. Getting More Organized Every Day.
7. The Days Get Longer.
8. Happy Pack with Peanut Butter Infused Chew Toys.
9. Knitting for the First Branch.
10. Mr. Ben MacAnTuile.

Id come back as her, anyday.

"The world is to us what the Garden of Eden was supposed to be to Adam and Eve. Adam and Eve were banished, but we are banishing ourselves from our Eden. The difference is that Adam and Eve had somewhere else to go. We have nowhere else to go. We hope that by the time you read this you will have at least partially curtailed our reckless greed and stupidity. If we have not, at least some of us have tried. … All we can say is learn from what we have achieved, but above all learn from our mistakes, do not go on endlessly like a squirrel in a wheel committing the same errors hour by hour day by day year after year century after century as we have done up to now. We hope that there will be fireflies and glow-worms at night to guide you and butterflies in hedges and forests to greet you. We hope that there will still be the extraordinary varieties of creatures sharing the land of the planet with you to enchant you."



"The way of love leads all ways to life beyond words, silent and secret. To serve that triumph I have done all the rest."



"Many of us are in it for the process rather than the product...keep this in mind: It’s called “knitting,” not “sweater-making.”


Snow day. slept way in. winnowed the piles and organized the yarn. little pockets of order every day, along with dishes and laundry. the horror of Gaza. toasting marshmallows for my boys. it snows some more. mythological creatures in the flames, waiting for the financial energy to flow in, making nice with creditors who want to chat about the dogs. im grateful for my abilities and the opportunities im given to utilize them.

10 of 365:

1. Hush-Puppies with Syrup.
2. Badger Balm.
3. #4's Appreciation of Gary Paulsen.
4. Michael Moore and all the Muck-Rakers.
5. Firewood.
6. Wild Dreams while Sleeping In.
7. Breathing Easy.
8. H.H. the Dalai Lama.
9. Aloe Plants.

Dig This. Or, why i decided to become a vegetarian after a long time away from compassionate consumption.

"The cosmic rhythms are nudging you to enjoy a time of profound slack."



The blue of my Heart. crepuscular blue. liminal blue. faerie blue. twilight blue.



the downward spiral runs through the valley. i can do so much with so little, but am embarassed at my self-esteem. theres black beans and a lucky acorn and today im supposed to trust myself. begin to trust myself. because i have all these things within me to bear and share. its still early january and im not quite awake. bitter liquid cold this morning and ice from the sky tonight, and maybe over dinner on friday she and i can waltz it out into the light, into the next season of our knowing what there is to know about us. i still secretly wrestle with why i didnt get the job but so it goes and there you are and whats to be done? i still chalk it up to my infinite shortcomings and dreadful luck. but then again im blessed, im fed an going to bed and waking up to coffee and cake with chocolate frosting i made from butter and chocolate, barley flour and eggs. itll be alright, whatever it turns out to be. trust me.

9 of 365:

1. Dusk Blue.
2. Not Worrying.
3. Being Able to Feed my Family.
4. Roasted Butternut Squash.
5. Literacy.
6. Thinking Maybe we could be Friends Again.
7. Cuddled in the Red Chair, Reading.
8. The Pack didnt Deconstruct my Enormous Ball of Yarn while i was Away.
9. Green Himalayan Tea.

"Spirituality, as it's been said, being the fine art of paying attention."



Louise wasnt having it so i caught the neighbor who forgot her fags and she dropped me off and i went to work and i was grateful. all returning, we wonder at how much is forgotten after two weeks, a building full of women growing older, our branches far extended over the river beside which we are rooted. theyre calling for cuts, theres a dysfunctional family elephant vibe everywhere. like the game where we hold our cards up to our foreheads for others to view.



I make pizza dough, mushrooms and onions, pepper jack and parmesean. i do what i can with what i have where i am. the sky was clear, day to night, the wide open night and bright fellow travellers on the oval course of eternity. blue dusk, firewood and compost, collecting #4 and making small bright connections, tentative looking forwards and the blue dog in my arms on the porch in the cold. my secret santa revealed, the woman with the beautiful hair, and she gave me the boy in the striped pajamas. walking home from the post office i could smell our woodsmoke and see the light on the creekwater and there was chocolate to taste and the trailermans cats spitting in the cold night across the bridge and the feel of the gentle dough under my fingers. the world is a marvelous place and im grateful for my health and the peace around me, all the while everywhere around the world there is suffering and injustice. violence of flesh and the souls tragedy. all the while im chittering away at a laptop listening to billy bragg drinking green tea, fed, literate, with the luxury of time to learn how to love my self at last.

8 of 365:

1. Mrs. H. and G.
2. Book Suggestions.
3. My Difficulties are So Minor.
4. A Short Walk after Work and before Supper.
5. The Woodstove.
6. iTunes.
7. Amy Goodman.
8. Homemade Pizza.
9. Clean Water.

“All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.”

7 of 365:

1. Peace in the Valley, for Me.
2. She's Okay.
3. Hope.
4. Clean, Healthy Food.
5. The Videos #4 Creates.
6. Sunlight.
7. Dog Love.
8. He Fixed the Chimney.
9. Safe, Clean Water.
10. Excellent Books in Small Format.



A day spent doing what i never let myself do. slept way late, pancakes and coffee, a book and a blanket, prairie home and knitting, letting it go. later on i may wash dishes and do laundry but the plants are watered and its the end of the holiday. monday its back on the bus and the year begins. many auspicious omens and signs of good regard. i suppose my head will be elsewhere until spring, but i keep my hands busy with the wonder of two sticks and string. blessed be.

"Art is central to all our lives, not just the better-off and educated. . . I know that from my own story, and from the evidence of every child ever born — they all want to hear and to tell stories, to sing, to make music, to act out little dramas, to paint pictures, to make sculptures. This is born in and we breed it out. And then, when we have bred it out, we say that art is elitist, and at the same time we either fetishize art — the high prices, the jargon, the inaccessibility — or we ignore it. The truth is, artist or not, we are all born on the creative continuum, and that is a heritage and a birthright of all of our lives."




"Let me put it another way. You're a rebel creator longing to make the whole universe your home and sanctuary. You are a dissident bodhisattva joyfully struggling to germinate the seeds of divine love that are packed inside every moment."



"My passionate sense of social justice and social responsibility has always contrasted oddly with my pronounced lack of need for direct contact with other human beings and human communities."

Up early outside very cold. the phone rang and the flue was open. my foray into the world seems to have taxed my immune system. i invite the hillfolk down, theyre working out and going raw, mostly. the horoscopes tell me i should be doing what im doing, so i have that going for me.

"If the eye of the heart is open, in each atom there will be one hundred secrets."



"Silently one by one, in the infinite meadows of heaven/Blossomed the lovely stars, the forget-me-nots of angels."



A big melt. Driving home window wide open seasonally disoriented by the warm wind and the fields revealed startled and hummocky. creek churning melt birdsong Z. running through puddles across the lawn but no smell of spring just deep wet from feet of christmas snow. low sky lower lower fortifying myself with fierce coffee and an evening preparing for guests on the morrow #1 and 2, the daughter-mother with the first branch on the third limb, his hearts delight. bless me ive learned enough to keep it simple, good enough and put a little heart into it. baked goods and i splurged on maple syrup and forgot milk. things are changing.

6 of 365:

1. my stove-top popcorn popper.
2. sweetened condensed milk.
3. honesty.
4. im learning slowly how to throw a frisbee properly.
5. my shoes are washable.
6. i make an awesome crisp.
7. rechargeable batteries.
8. my kids are healthy.
9. health insurance after twenty years.

"Things will be better if we all take care of each other than they will be if we don't take care of each other."

5 of 365:

1. Meet Joe Black.
2. The Compassion of a Cowboy.
3. Holiday leftovers from my Sister.
4. Getting back into Bed after letting the Dogs out and feeding the Fire.
5. Knitting.
6. My Health.
7. The Ever-Changing Sky.
8. Dogs.
9. NPR.

Read a random meme to post the fourth photo in the fourth file.

4 of 365:

1. my sister
2. clean water
3. dogs
4. my nieces
5. #4
6. laughter
7. the officer decided not to pull me over
8. self-comfort and confidence
9. hope

our favorite player name in the Dreidel Championships in brooklyn?

Yom Kippur Some Sugar on Me.

3 of 365:

1. the dog in the movie didnt die.
2. neither did bb, bubba, or the baby.
3. i made a hat im not immediately horrified by.
4. i made a good dinner for my peeps.
5. the birds are coming to the feeders.
6. were all more or less getting along.
7. i figured out what to get #4 for his birthday.
8. knitting.
9. cinnamon imperials.